Just A Little Whinge

Some days I just want to find a quiet little corner and hide there, totally undisturbed, for a few long hours. I am the full time carer of one very energetic, often disobedient, problem solving(which is a problem in itself), curious, very loud, mess making three year old boy. I am also full time carer (when she is not at school) to a very talkative(I swear she could talk under water), imaginative, refuses to eat fruit, sometimes disobedient, impatient, but loving five year old girl.

This mothering gig is really hard work! It does my head in so often. I'm not a very patient person and have a bad temper to boot. Throw in being tired often and a moody temperament and you get how this picture can be sometimes. I'm learning to count to ten, or just throw my hands up in the air, go get the wipes and clean up the mess without saying a word. There is not as much yelling as there used to be(from me that is). Hmmm, I'm painting quite the negative picture here, aren't I? I shall stop that right now!

I am in love with my children. I often just watch them doing whatever they do. Listen to their conversation between each other from another room and giggle to myself cos it's so funny. I laugh to myself when Monkey is getting into trouble and tries to distract the adult by raising his eyebrows up and down or winking at them. It's very hard to hold a straight face with him sometimes. Like the time I caught him chucking stuff out of the second draw in the kitchen onto the floor, I said " My goodness mate, that's so naughty!" He said without looking at me or stopping, "Yes it is". I just had to walk away cos I started giggling. His response was so honest and so funny the way he said it. He's such a clown. I will add that he had to put everything back into the draw and with a little threat from the wooden spoon was happy to oblige. Angel is a lot easier to discipline. She can be just as naughty, but she is older and understands consequences a lot better.

Am I being more positive now? I do love them, and I do love being their mum. I just need a little down time every now and then. Down time without interruption.

~ Ky x